Cheat (long) weekend…say whaaaat!

Sometimes I forget and how I got started on my weightloss journey because the few times that I have fallen off the wagon, I found it incredibly difficult to get back up.

It takes a constant reconditioning of the mind to get me to rediscover why I started in the first place. Yes, you do start all over again. It’s not like riding a bicycle after many years.

You literally have to repeat certain steps to get back on that wagon.
This is usually the place where most people give up. I mean just last weekend I didn’t just have one cheat-meal, it was the entire day starting beautifully with a healthy shake and by the afternoon it was off to a bachelorette where I went completely overboard with milktart, pies, braai and Merlot on tap with chips and sweets in between. I went completely bos. I felt like I just could not stop myself and when a window of opportunity to stop myself showed itself, I intentionally ignored it.

I was so sick the next day but the disgust for my actions surpassed my physical nausea and diarrhoea. My body was rebelling and the cycle of self- loathe began. I felt guilty and ashamed.

‘I must get a grip of myself’ I told myself, but how. It was so much easier then…or was it?
I have lost over 30kgs and I was convinced that I had gained at least 4kgs in one weekend. I panicked, thinking I did not come this far to get this far.

The fact is, the last time I had lost weight and fallen off the wagon, there was not that much at stake. I had only lost a few kgs, nothing to write home about. Now that I had lost all this weight, I feel a certain pressure that people are watching me.

But why did I go overboard the way I did?
Simple. I just wanted to let loose for just a bit. I have been so strict on myself lately that I completely rebelled. I have started on a more advanced programme to build muscle and had been training with a bodybuilder. My mind was just not ready for that step yet.
I could not wrap my mind around the amounts of food that I had to eat, constantly being hungry, low on energy and doing weight training 6 days a week.
I became more demotivated than ever as I had gained 5kgs of which 3.5 kgs was body fat…not good- not his meal-plans fault but my rebellious attitude. I was sticking to the diet 6 out of 7 days and of course the ONE day did more damage than perhaps one small cheat-snack per day, which I am used to. I have fallen into the trap of binge-eating is the simple explanation.

I have taken steps to get back on trap and lose that excess body fat so that my hard work can finally start showing. I had no intentions of looking like a body builder. I just wanted to be firmer and leaner.
I have also realised that this will be more difficult to achieve (I refuse to say impossible) because I do have a lot of excess skin and no matter how hard I train will never firm up-but I am not giving up.

Tips to avoid falling into the weekend binging trap:
1. Know why you’re wanting to lose weight or reach a certain goal.
Write down why this is important to you. Keep it close or in sight. This way you will stay true to yourself.
2. The occasional cheat-treat will not hurt especially if you make some smart food swops for example, if you feel like having chocolate, try a few blocks of dark chocolate. If you are craving for sweets, try a handful of dates and almonds or apple slices and nutbutter. There are so many healthy snacks you can have almost every night, even a cup of low-fat vanilla ice-cream every other evening. This way your body will still enjoy sweet indulgences and not feel deprived causing rebellious behaviour sending you down the hill.

xx

Sio

SioCheat (long) weekend…say whaaaat!